Thanks all. He passed away around the time I last posted. I'm sorry I did so, I didn't want to upset anyone.
I am so sorry man, are you OK? This is a really bad place to be but trust me it gets better. Just hold on to those good memories you have of him. You can get through this man, I know it. You and your dad are in my prayers and thoughts. I'm sending you a Private Message with me phone number in case you need it. I wish you the best my friend.